Today, ladies and gents, I figured that I would start out my post by sharing a special Allie fact of the day: I’m terrified of roller coasters. True story.
I won’t bore you with explicitly mundane details of said fear. Let’s just say that it all began during a trip to Disney World when my dad snuck me on to the Rock ‘n Rollercoaster, which accelerates to high speeds faster than an astronaut does on a space shuttle launch (according to Wikipedia). That was over ten years ago, and needless to say I haven’t been on a roller coaster since. Until Wednesday, that is.
As I mentioned in my last post, my new friend Celine and I went to Coney Island two days ago. Located in southern Brooklyn, it was just a fifty minute train ride from the hustle and bustle of the city. The sky was locked in a battle between sun and clouds, but for the first few hours there was a warmth that managed to find our skin, and so we unfurled our bodies on the hot sand. It was the strangest experience to hear the waves methodically crashing against the shore line; we had to keep reminding ourselves that we were less than an hour away from one of the busiest cities in the world. I could feel my body melting into the ground beneath me, and as Celine and I talked we fell into a dreamy haze that only the beach can provide.
Celine and I lounging on the beach
Such heavenly bliss continued for about an hour. Then, a particularly nasty group of seagulls began terrorizing the family next to us, so we decided that it was high time to get our bums in gear and explore our carnival surroundings. The boardwalk was blasting pop music from all different decades, fusing instantly with the screaming masses being hurled through the air on various thrill-seeking rides. After noodling about for a while, we came to the Cyclone; Coney Island’s infamous wooden roller coaster, originally built in 1927. Although I was petrified, there was some part of me that wanted to brave this rickety ride, if only to say that I’d done it. This summer I’ve had to face many doubts and fears about myself head on, so why not try to eliminate another?
Celine and I got our tickets and were snapped into the snug seats. My hands unconsciously clutched on to each other as though my body was trying to pray without the consent of my mind, and I could feel my heartbeat reverberating through my chest. Like a startled lamb, I looked about, desperately trying to find a way out. I’d made a mistake. I didn’t think I could do this, and an overwhelming fear told me to get out while I still could. But it was too late. The ancient roller coaster groaned to life and my body began trembling, certain of its imminent demise.
As we ascended to the ride’s peak, I remembered the importance of breathing, and tried to exhale my fears along with the oxygen. The build up was an eternity and the sky was heavy with what felt like a doomed unknown, ominous and intimidating.
Then, quicker than I could register, we plummeted down, down, down, being tossed like rag dolls along the bumpy terrain. My eyes were watering with the speed of it all, and I was screaming so loud I thought my lungs were surely on fire. There was nothing that my brain could think of. My high strong, analytical head was on a two minute sabbatical, unable to register anything but the sensations flooding my present state.
As Celine began screaming about how she wanted nothing more than to get off the ride, an unprecedented laughter bubbled up from my core. I felt like a buoy in a storm; there was nothing that I could do but ride out the waves of motion, and rather than feeling helpless I was immensely liberated by the beauty exploding in the present. My fingers became magnets attached to the sky, and I let everything go.
In retrospect, I feel like the Cyclone was a perfect metaphor for my time in New York. And for life in general, I guess. No matter my numerous anxieties or doubts, sometimes the best remedy for fear is to face it head on, fully aware of the potential for unexpected twists and turns. The unknown is utterly daunting, but sometimes these are the experiences that provide the most rewarding outcomes. I feel as though I’ve pushed myself on many different levels within the past two months, and in turn have learned a lot about myself from the good and the bad results that such adventures have provided. Although a part of me would be much happier to plan out all of the curveballs of life, I’ve learned that it’s so much more fun to just strap myself in, open my eyes wide, and greet the ups and downs with a stupid grin on my face.
So here's my revised Allie fact of the day: I absolutely love roller coasters.
Celine and I, pre ride












